When? When will it get better? ):

I feel such hopelessness.

During my 8th grade year I was in love. We were together for a year, but I messed everything up. I’m still not over it. I’m still hurting and tonight I can’t stop thinking about it. I feel hopelessness, I can’t breathe.

I’m listening to the album he told me to listen to when we weren’t allowed to talk anymore… and I’m just losing it. I haven’t cried like this in forever.

It’s just the realization that even now that I’m old enough to love whoever I want, it will never be. He’s moved on in the past few years… but who could blame him? I was horrible.

Sometimes I feel like I can not truly love again… I try and try, but nothing measures up.

I’m so close to giving up. ):

I have officially stopped biting my nails. It has been 3 weeks and it was very very easy at first.

Now I seriously stare at them all day long and want nothing more than to tear them off with my teeth when I’m interacting with others. I get so anxious and my anxiety gets even worse when I don’t allow myself to rip them off.

Sometimes I feel like I’m that one girl that nobody wants around. Sometimes I feel so alone and conspire that everyone secretly hates me. I literally almost have panic attacks every single day because of these thoughts.

I feel a lot less hungry and can get away with eating a lot less. I feel more energy and more apt to go out of my way to get in a longer work out (even pushing through my allergies when I’m exercising outdoors). Side effects are minimal and I have only experienced them while taking the supplement on an empty stomach. I advise not to do that or you will be dry heaving over the toilet for a few hours.

Anyway, I’d rate this supplement a 8/10 so far. It’s still a little bit too early to see physical progress.

You have to eat to live.. so obviously I eat thank you very much. So people can stop bringing my personal shit up and worry about themselves and their own health. Throwing what I deal with in my face is in NO way okay.

Two people in the last 24 hours have shown to me how ignorant they truly are. If you don’t understand, don’t bring it up. As if I don’t think about those things enough on my own anyway.
Just so done with everyone right now.

No nausea so far and I can take one close to bed time and not feel too jittery to sleep.
It does give a bit of extra energy, but not to the point of being too much to sit still.
These have the least amount of side effects of the supplements I have taken.
It’s too soon to determine if they work for weight loss, but I will keep updating.

So I’m going to be reviewing the Raspberry Ketone supplement on my blog since I purchased them today.

So far, I feel as if it’s beginning to get rid of that initial water weight.. which is an excellent start. I do not feel jittery, agitated, or really any negative side effects as of right now.

I previously used Green Tea supplements as well as Isodrene (which was unsafe and recalled and I didn’t find out until months later and was still taking it) and both of those made me jittery, anxious, too sick to eat (which didn’t bother me too much), and my body was just plain tired and not tired as in sleepy… tired as in my body just did not want to function.

So, I heard good things about the raspberry ketone supplement and I’m hoping to see some good results.

If anybody wants to share their experiences, feel free to message me and tell me how they worked for you.